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I didn't expect to meet him here during class time.
He and I were separated by three bookshelves. I noticed him when he walked out from one of the bookshelves.
Shu Haining, can you recognize me this time?
My hand gently pulled the book lying horizontally between us.
Do you want to go to school? Grandma smiled at me and said, "That's good. We went abroad when Yunque was only eight years old, and we didn't have a chance to experience campus life in China. While there are still a few days left before the college entrance examination, it's not a bad idea to make the most of our time as high school students and have a good experience."
The next day when I woke up, I had breakfast alone. My grandmother told me that Tang Ruizhe had left early in the morning and was going to report to S University today.
I am not worried about not being able to get into S University. For people like me and Tang Ruizhe, perhaps studying is the easiest thing. Things with answers are always simple, while those without answers are the most difficult.
However, it is said that the subway will be available soon. The subway will be opened in three months. By then, when I go to study at S University, I can live at home every day.
Without expectations, there will be no harm. I understood this truth deeply when I was eight years old. Since then, I no longer hold such emotions towards anything or anyone. Therefore, during the ten years from the age of eight to eighteen, I did not feel sad or lonely, to the extent that I have never even experienced the feeling of loss.
However, for some reason, this trick failed today.
I had never thought about experiencing school life before. For me, domestic schools were just painful memories filled with loneliness, exclusion, and ridicule. However, my grandmother's words make sense. There are only a few days left in high school, and once I enter university, the learning environment and lifestyle will be completely different.
The principal told me that since there are only a few days left, I can freely choose to attend classes in any senior three class.
I held onto my school uniform and entered the room. Suddenly, I wanted to see what I would look like wearing a school uniform from my home country.
Shu Haining, are you ready for the formal meeting ten years later?
S University is a well-known school in China, with many applicants every year, so the admission score is particularly high. Tang Ruizhe was able to transfer to S University because the university he attended abroad was already at the world's top level.
The school uniform on the body looks very nice, with a delicate white doll collar shirt, a dark red checkered skirt, and a collar with the same color as the skirt. If I go to school like this, I definitely won't stand out in the crowd like that day.
Cold blue, different from what I saw at first glance, it was completely unfamiliar, a look that I didn't understand at all.
I stood in front of the mirror and looked carefully.
Ten years have turned him into what kind of person, I have never thought about this kind of question. Because Shu Haining is Shu Haining, a person who gives people a sense of tranquility like the sea.
It's useless. I feel a little anxious and irritable. Shu Haining's eyes always appear in front of me.
That's how I tossed and turned, and in the end, I gave up on this unsolvable puzzle.
I really want to take a look at the expression on his face later.
After changing into the school uniform, my grandmother walked in and exclaimed with delight, "It suits our Yunque very well."
After coming back, this is the third time I've seen him, right?
My hand rested on a book, and he stopped in front of me. At that moment, the distance between us was less than fifty centimeters. Separated by a row of bookshelves, he stood opposite me.
Today, I still couldn't help but have expectations for something.
Possibly, the high school seniors have no new classes to attend, and they can also spend their free revision time in the library.
After having breakfast, I sat down on the sofa and planned to find a book to read. However, when I reached out, I touched a paper bag. I picked it up and took a glance, it was the high school uniform that Tang Ruizhe brought back.
I cover my eyes with the back of my hand, hoping to temporarily calm myself down with a slight sense of pressure. Every time when my emotions cannot be calmed, I do this, and it usually works.
If he recognizes me, what kind of expression will he show?
Stepping into this school again, my mood is different from the first time. The slightly oppressive silence is gone. After wandering around for a while, I went to the principal's office and asked which class I could attend.
If I take away a book, will he notice me?
I should take advantage of the last few days to truly experience and appreciate it with my current mindset.
What would be your reaction when you recognize me in that moment?
When I arrived at the school, the class had already started. Although I was late, the principal and the security guard had already greeted each other. After I reported my name, the security guard opened the door for me promptly.
S 大就在我们这座城市 , 不过距离海边有点儿远 , 坐公交车需要转三趟 , 历时两个小时才能抵达。
He slowly walked towards the side, and I followed his rhythm and walked in the same direction.
I took a book and held it in my hand, then walked towards the previous bookshelf. At this moment, Shu Haining had already reached the opposite side of the bookshelf, and I could see his eyebrows and eyes through the gap in the bookshelf.
Ah, really! How did it start to become like the past as soon as I came back?
So, I put a few books into my black backpack, and then told my grandmother before leaving.
Just like yesterday, he still didn't notice me.
However, after leaving here, I can hardly be considered to have studied properly. When I was abroad, the school discipline was more relaxed, and I easily passed each time, with the teachers not paying attention to my attendance rate.
After some consideration, I decided not to go to any of my classes and instead went to the library with my backpack. While browsing the bookshelves, I unexpectedly caught sight of a familiar figure.
Although I know that I will be hurt once I have expectations, I still have a slight expectation of seeing his expression of astonishment and surprise.
I mind, although I don't know why I mind so much.
In the evening, I lie in bed, tossing and turning, thinking about the events of the day, unable to fall asleep.
However, when I met him again, he became a complete stranger to me.